Thanks Jo
If we make it back all we really need to know is we are addicts and again decided that it seemed better loaded than being sober and start anew. I think there is way to much put into relaspe. Everyone is trying to find that magic answer. I watched a show on MTV (mistake even watching that channel) I am not a teenager anymore. But anyway.. they have a program called Sober House for the rich and famous, or maybe just famous Rodney King, some drummer from Guns and Roses, a porn star, comedian and a counsler with 2 years that runs the house..as doctor that does sessions and one on ones. Its a joke.. they let people come in loaded and get loaded and let them back over and over. Go to nightclubs the latest the porm queen is going to a swingers convention where people go to get laid. The world is spinning out of control and I am no prude. But to get back to relapse, like this program there is big money in it, and so many opinions.
Bill W put it pretty simple..something like. We put way to much on relapse.. especially needless guilt.
We do what addicts and drunks do... get loaded. I have seen miracles in the program people you would never of believed would make it. And sad things people with many years giving up and checking out. I do not have any answers to this.. but I do know you can be going to meetings, working the program, sponsoring, love God, and still go out... I did it. And everyone had a opinion on why. I was dead off into my recovery so it goes to show ya I wanted to get loaded plain and simple and nothing else mattered. We have a daily repreive and I do not even believe its contigent on doing any one thing. For me I finally realized that the consequences were more than I was willing to face. Life has gotten better in a lot of ways, but as also been a lot harder in others. Physically I am paying a big price for my using and neglect, but that is just the way it is. Living to 56 is a miracle. I have outlived my parents and my brother and sister in law and most people I knew and many I have met in recovery. So go figure?
I still think about it, I am a dope fiend.. and loved using and drinking. But my body has said ENOUGH... and maybe I have grown up a little also..
Sure do not feel 56 in my heart and mind.... forget the body..
We are all winners today... I love you all sober or not..but hope you can be happy for the most part clean and sober one day at a time for the rest of your lives..
If we make it back all we really need to know is we are addicts and again decided that it seemed better loaded than being sober and start anew. I think there is way to much put into relaspe. Everyone is trying to find that magic answer. I watched a show on MTV (mistake even watching that channel) I am not a teenager anymore. But anyway.. they have a program called Sober House for the rich and famous, or maybe just famous Rodney King, some drummer from Guns and Roses, a porn star, comedian and a counsler with 2 years that runs the house..as doctor that does sessions and one on ones. Its a joke.. they let people come in loaded and get loaded and let them back over and over. Go to nightclubs the latest the porm queen is going to a swingers convention where people go to get laid. The world is spinning out of control and I am no prude. But to get back to relapse, like this program there is big money in it, and so many opinions.
Bill W put it pretty simple..something like. We put way to much on relapse.. especially needless guilt.
We do what addicts and drunks do... get loaded. I have seen miracles in the program people you would never of believed would make it. And sad things people with many years giving up and checking out. I do not have any answers to this.. but I do know you can be going to meetings, working the program, sponsoring, love God, and still go out... I did it. And everyone had a opinion on why. I was dead off into my recovery so it goes to show ya I wanted to get loaded plain and simple and nothing else mattered. We have a daily repreive and I do not even believe its contigent on doing any one thing. For me I finally realized that the consequences were more than I was willing to face. Life has gotten better in a lot of ways, but as also been a lot harder in others. Physically I am paying a big price for my using and neglect, but that is just the way it is. Living to 56 is a miracle. I have outlived my parents and my brother and sister in law and most people I knew and many I have met in recovery. So go figure?
I still think about it, I am a dope fiend.. and loved using and drinking. But my body has said ENOUGH... and maybe I have grown up a little also..
Sure do not feel 56 in my heart and mind.... forget the body..
We are all winners today... I love you all sober or not..but hope you can be happy for the most part clean and sober one day at a time for the rest of your lives..
